MoonzieStar

Sitting here in the middle of the night unable to sleep. It’s times like this that things begin to get dangerous in the mind that is Jaime. I start to reflect on things I’ve said, regrets about things I should have said, or did say that I didn’t mean. Start to worry about tomorrow. Start to doubt today. And it all starts to piss me off. I mean, really, I am a very happy, positive person. But sometimes, I just want to bang my head against a fucking wall.

Right now I am having one of those nights. I was trying to find the perfect song to go along with my thoughts. I went through my typical downward youtube spiral of the good, the bad, and the ugly, but honestly, at the end of the day, there have been few bands that have really helped me through the good and the bad in my life, and NIN is one of them.

For tonights pity party, I have chosen WISH!

this is the first day of my last days
i built it up now i take it apart climbed up real high now fall down real far
no need for me to stay the last thing left i just threw it away
i put my faith in god and my trust in you
now there’s nothing more fucked up i could do
wish there was something real wish there was something true
wish there was something real in this world full of you
i’m the one without a soul i’m the one with this big fucking hole
no new tale to tell twenty-six years on my way to hell
gotta listen to your big time hard line bad luck fist fuck
don’t think you’re having all the fun
you know me i hate everyone
wish there was something real wish there was something true
wish there was something real in this world full of you
i want to but i can’t turn back
but i want to