MoonzieStar

Today was a very rough day and a worse night. I am going through a very tough personal time right now and I sat in bed crying for more than 2 hours tonight. I finally decided to write down what was on my mind. 3 hours later with one massive scare thanks to the power plug coming out (thank god for auto save drafts in Word) and multiple interruptions from kids that I had to quickly hide my tears to talk to, and I was finally done. What I had created was a 3 page, multi-paragraph document with 1918 words. Whew! I had a LOT on my mind and have had it there for the last 2 weeks. For reasons I don’t care to divulge here on the public interwebs, I have been keeping those thoughts mostly to myself.

What I’ve learned lately is that by doing that, I just cloud my judgement further which leads to more frustration than I need nor can handle right now. I call what I did mind-dumping. Every little thing that has been bothering me was noted in that document. I was just about to hit delete when I stopped. The good thing about mind-dumping is it gives you a clean slate of sorts. Sometimes those thoughts are things you really don’t want others to read. But at the same time, if there was that much clouding your brain, does it make sense to just hit delete? I mean, really… almost 2000 words in the trash? NO!

I decided to confer with the stars, you know, via my horoscope. Sometimes I like to read horoscopes as the END of the day to see if they would have been right and this was one of those occasions. It said: It’s time that you took more aggressive action to get a situation under control, Cancer. Even if there is no Taurus in your life, you need to “grab the bull by the horns.” Don’t wait until things get any worse (or any more complicated) before you do something about them. If you can figure out how taking a risk can give you the advantage in a tricky situation, take it. It’s your day to be in charge and to steer things in the direction you want them to go.

Wow. I mean, I know these things are written to be vague for many reasons that I don’t care to go into here, but today…today was different. It fit my life perfectly. I immediately saved the document and debated for over 20 minutes about whether or not I should send it to the person it was directed towards of just hold on to it. I’m going to let fate answer that.

For now, I feel really good to have gotten it off my chest even if it was just between me and my loving Gateway Tablet PC.

Now, off to go scrub the mascara off of my sore eyes.